count down in order?

i think so don't you? so i have been here since what…July 31st? i say so anyway. been a while and well i have to say that I'm ready to go home. i have truly enjoyed my stay away from the normal but I'm ready to get back into the dirt and grime of my real home! i miss the great country and the smell of wood smoke in the evenings. and gosh i miss the loud noises in my house of kids screaming and laughing and yelling at each other. i always complained but you have no idea how i miss it so.

what i miss most is my family. seeing them smile even in times when smiling is the only thing we can do to keep ourselves going thru the week. and i truly appreciate it more and more. i love living a grateful for what i have lifestyle better than the I've got money lets go to the mall and shop lifestyle. :D i never truly appreciated what i had until i started earning my own money. thank you mom and dad for raising me right. :D

anyway so ive added more days to my schedule. which is nice. i am actually able to get out of the house. but i wish i could get out after work and hang with people. my “friends” are more acquaintances than friends at work. but alteast im not comfortable to talk to people outside of my bubble.

aaah ok so anyway count down? yes…im coming home to stay for good at christmas time because i miss everyone and everything back home more than i really can say. ive tried to hold it back and not let the emotions get the better of me, but the mask strings are wearing thin and i cannot manage to keep the mask on.

i wanna be able to come home and my dog welcome me. and you know what i really regret not spending more time with my family before i left. i became so lost in myself for the fact that i was leaving that i hid in my room or went out with friends. and i really wish that i could have that time again and able to spend it more with my family.

darn it i didnt wanna start crying for this….geeez. but im glad that i have like 2 and1/2 months left of this place. i dont think i was ready to leave the house just yet. i need my parents and siblings most of all. and they have NO idea how i really feel. D:

classic peg.

tuesday is dumpster day?

every 2 weeks in ridgewood there is a large trash pick up day. and let me tell you the saying "one mans trash is another mans treasure" is sooo true! the people out here seriously throw away things that are either so last week or so last season. or just whatever, and you find yourself coming home with sooo many great finds! i am on my way to furnishing my first apartment i swear!
i got a queen sized wooden bed frame with the whole old fashion would slats and all. i got a really cool chair, a baby basket complete with padding and all. and then found yet another chair but might not keep it. on a second run out i found 2 ATVs for kids, a childs chest of drawers, and a lebron james nike basketball. what a deal eh? totally something i would do every 2 weeks because you never know whats out there.