the movie

for all those who DIDNT see twilight opening night.
it was amazing!!!!
me and my friends went to the theater at 8:30pm
and sat in the front of the line till they let us in at 11!!
it was fantasmagoric!! lol
edward was amazingly sexy so was carlisle...OMG WAS HE HAWT!. jasper i would marry. james had a great body haha sorry. and jacob...well he was weird..

TWILIGHT!!!

me and my 2 friends got our midnight release twilight movie tickets on saturday!
GAH!! IM SO EXCITED!!

im so over it.

well my experience in the past has been nothing but negative.
but its ok. cause i just dont think about him anymore.
im over it.

the words from katharine McPhee's song over it...you should listen to it.
cause thats my song to him...
is like so...whatever...

I'm over your lies
And I'm over your games
I'm over you asking me
When you know I'm not okay

You call me at night
And I pick up the phone
And though you be telling me
I know you're not alone

Oh, and that's why
(Your eyes)
I'm over it
(Your smile)
I'm over it
(Realize)
I'm over it
I'm over it
I'm over...

Wanting you to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be
How I feel, read my lips
Because I'm so over (I'm so)

Moving on, it's my time
You never were a friend of mine
Hurt at first, a little bit
But now I'm so over
I'm so over it

I'm over your hands
And I'm over your mouth
Trying to drag me down
And fill me with self-doubt

Oh, and that's why
(Your words)
I'm over it
(So sure)
I'm over it
(I'm not your girl)
I'm over it
I'm over it
I'm over...

Wanting you to be wanting me
No that ain't no way to be
How I feel, read my lips
Because I'm so over (I'm so)

Moving on, it's my time
You never were a friend of mine
Hurt at first, a little bit
But now I'm so over
I'm so over it

So over it
Ohh

Don't call, don't come by
Ain't no use, don't ask me why
You'll never change
There'll be no more crying in the rain

Wanting you to be wanting me.
No that ain't no way to be
How I feel, read my lips
Because I'm so over (I'm so)

Moving on, it's my time
You never were a friend of mine
Hurt at first, a little bit
But now I'm so over
I'm so over it

I'm so over it
I'm over it
Wohh yeah

Wanting you to be wanting me
No that ain't no way to be
How I feel, read my lips
Because I'm so over (I'm so)

Moving on, it's my time
You never were a friend of mine
Hurt at first, a little bit
But now I'm so over
I'm so over it


words speak true....

Emmett James

well i told him....

i was hanging out with my friend maggie last night down on main street. and we hit the park and i had this overwhelming feeling to tell chris that i liked him... i didnt know when the next time i was going to see him but i felt that i really needed to tell him...

but i wish now i could go back in time and erase me even thinking i wanted to tell him...

he said "well i think your a great girl, but i think its best if we remained friends"

thanks,man....
i told him i just wanted to know. it wouldnt hurt me what he said...
and well 97% of me expected him to say that he didnt feel the same way.
the other 3% was just hanging on that already fallen star that i felt i couldnt let go of.
but now i have let go of that star. i am never wishing on fallen stars ever again.
i cried my eyes dry last night after i got home.
i couldnt even go into seminary. i sat in the hallway and listened to the lesson. but i couldnt bare to go into the room. there was way to many people and i couldnt handle it.

so school today was a pain. i felt like one of those people who wants to eat their weight in ice cream and pizza. much like in the mormon version of pride and prejudice. i wanted to just run out of school...

the finish

well i gave my baby back on monday.
doesnt that sound horrible!!
well it was. i now know that i am totally not ready for kids for a long time!!!
well i suppose i have known that for quite some time.
but it really hit me with this kid. but thats the point.
saturday and sunday surprisingly he was much more quiet than usual. thankfully.
but he didnt follow the schedule that he started on. so i was constantly changing something.

and saturday i went to my aunt heathers for a scrap-booking party!
awesome right?
well i had to bring him with me.
thankfully he didnt cry as much as he usually did. and he made cueing noises all day.
sunday morning i was fed up. i had NO sleep. cause apparently he was much better and slept during the day but when it came to night he was crying every 5 minutes for something. so i didnt go to church. i was already sick from tuesday, plus the added on loss of sleep, didnt help me much. although my mom told a few people that i was bringing a baby to church and they were going to look for me. oh well.
come monday morning i was still sick so i got to stay home. but there was no way i was going to keep the baby an extra day. MAN DONT I SOUND HORRIBLE!
my teacher said that i was suffering from post-pardom depression. and i was like oh heck yes i was. i wanted to shake him crazy! lol
but i didnt i was a nice mom. after i came back home. i kept hearing the baby cries and noises in my head for the rest of the day. and for the next 2 days. i was going nuts!!!
but i hopefully got a good grade. haha.. ill put pictures up as soon as i can. they are cute. and weird. cause its me and i dont look good in any picture im in. sorry.