well i told him....

i was hanging out with my friend maggie last night down on main street. and we hit the park and i had this overwhelming feeling to tell chris that i liked him... i didnt know when the next time i was going to see him but i felt that i really needed to tell him...

but i wish now i could go back in time and erase me even thinking i wanted to tell him...

he said "well i think your a great girl, but i think its best if we remained friends"

thanks,man....
i told him i just wanted to know. it wouldnt hurt me what he said...
and well 97% of me expected him to say that he didnt feel the same way.
the other 3% was just hanging on that already fallen star that i felt i couldnt let go of.
but now i have let go of that star. i am never wishing on fallen stars ever again.
i cried my eyes dry last night after i got home.
i couldnt even go into seminary. i sat in the hallway and listened to the lesson. but i couldnt bare to go into the room. there was way to many people and i couldnt handle it.

so school today was a pain. i felt like one of those people who wants to eat their weight in ice cream and pizza. much like in the mormon version of pride and prejudice. i wanted to just run out of school...