the scariest thing ever

my week has been very relaxing. until i exploded on sunday. yeah thats what i said sunday. lol
i have been having problems alot lately with my mom.
i dont want to go into details over them. but i am.
and then i exploded and cried all morning on sunday.
and even tho i expressed how i was truely feeling.
she still gives me the guilt trips im so sick of!

and i think our family is falling apart very very fast.
no one outside the house knows it. but its scarying all of us kids.
doors slam. everyone cries. then there is silence. im running out of places to hide.
i dont know what to do. and i cant wait till something happens and its all fixed.
well i hope fixed as in it gets much much better.

i seriously want to run away. live with someone far away.
i dont want to hear the screaming and the crying.
i just want peace.quiet. i want happiness.

thats where it ends.
with me in the ground.
i cant take it!