addiction

so a typical good mormon should be addicted to reading the scriptures correct?
well im not sorry. im addicted to something much much stronger.
and they tell us that music is bad. that basically we should listen to church music and classical. um. sorry but i like something i can relate to.
and HOT DOG! i found it.
everything i listen to i can relate to and lately im addicted to taylor swift and all the songs on her fearless cd...WHICH I WANT SOOO BADLY
and then omgeezus...the veronicas. they rock my socks.
but anyway. i just wanted to get that out
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im really depressed.
and im really tired of friends and others telling wait and it will happen.
everything gets better. blah blah blah.
im so done with that.
cause right now im 18. NEVER been kissed. NEVER held hands that way with a guy
seriously if u count dancing with a guy and holding his hand ur nuts. cause then my sister meagan would have gotten more than me and shes 10!!!
and im tired of the freaking fat jokes. although its all true. cause im freaking huge. and i think thats a part of me STILL being single. boooorrrriiiinnnggg!!
but really its hard for girls to lose weight cause of all the stress guys put on us
and im hugely stressed right now.
college, PROM! which i still dont have a date. and im really upset cause i want a date for my freaking senior prom!!!
gah now im crying...
what a diary entry this is.
hooosha avril lavigne. she is the shiznit. and im proud to say that her songs make me cry even more. cause they are sooooooo true!!!!
i just wanna go home. and im already home...

text me if u have my number. its unlimited. but my patience on waiting for a guy is soooooooo limited. so stop telling me it will happen. cause ITS NOT!!

listen to avril lavigne's nobody's home. cause its me...